Alone Time
So the boys are at their mom and grandparents house for the night and I’ve had majority of the day to myself. I took the kids out to get their mom and grandmother something for Mother’s Day. I’m really glad the kids got to go over for the holiday.
Lizze and I will never be best friends but regardless, she will always be the mother of my children. That commands a certain level of respect that transcends things like divorce, disagreements, and pretty much anything else that life can hurl at us. I’ve said this a million times but you don’t have to like or even be friends with your kids other parent, but you do need get along, and be a team, devoted to raising good humans.
The kids will be home Sunday evening and I have until then to occupy myself.
Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy the break but at the same time, I miss my kids. I know that seems counterintuitive, and I know they drive me bonkers all the time, but it’s just not the same when they’re gone.
Moments like this are ideal for dating because I can actually go and do something but I’m not dating anyone at the moment, so…….
I’m not gonna lie, it can be lonely when the boys are gone. It took me awhile to be happy on my own, and I am. That doesn’t mean I wouldn’t rather have someone in my life to share this time with. Someday…….
I did absolutely nothing today and I enjoyed every minute of it. I took a couple naps and even ate some carbs. I’ve been limiting carbs this year and I’m down almost 30 lbs since January. Today was a cheat day and I’m sure I’ll pay for it when I step on the scale in the morning but that’s okay.
The dogs got lots of extra attention today and I think they liked that. They’re getting along well and the only thing we have to work on is a little bit of food aggression when it comes to Fergus. He can be kind of a dick but only with Ruby. He’s fine when it comes to people but doesn’t like Ruby near his bowl while he’s eating. I’m not really sure if that’s actually a problem or not.
My parents are on vacation and I had originally planned on going to visit them because I was invited and at least some of my siblings are going this weekend but it’s not going to work out. The kids aren’t home and I don’t want to be that far away, in the event they need me.
The only thing on my agenda today is yardwork. I need to cut the grass and trim everything in. My weed eater was giving me a bit of trouble last week so I need to mess with it again and get it working.
When my parents get back, we’re going to be starting some of these projects around the house. I might continue prepping for some of those.
I’m in a good place in life. Things aren’t perfect but I’m getting business back on track which is really the only stress I have in my life at the moment. Things took a hit with COVID but I’m making progress in the right direction and I feel good about that. If I can get things back on track this summer, I’ll be able to look at moving again. I really, really, really want to move to a bigger house in a better neighborhood, while the kids are still young enough to benefit from it.
Anyway, it’s been a good day. It was quiet and a smidgen on the lonely side but a good day nonetheless.
Before I take my leave, I want to wish all the Mom’s out there a very Happy Mother’s Day.
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