Special Needs Parents: Isolation, Grief, Guilt, and Fear
All special needs parents suffer from grief. Whatever “Normal” is, it is no small thing to lose. The grief is not a linear process. Some days and some years it will be better, some will be worse. Expect to grieve. We all do.
Most live through denial that this cannot be happening to them. Then they experience anger sparked by the grief and the sense of loss of “what could have been”. Anger is often followed by a profound sense of guilt. It’s only in a parent’s nature to think, “Was it something I did? What could I have done differently?” Yes, and even when doctors say you didn’t do anything to cause this, you still wonder. That voice doesn’t shut up sometimes. Working on the guilt is counter-productive… We do the best we know how until we learn better.
As you see your child struggle, you try not to imagine how things might be different for him but many days your insides shrivel up with fear of the future. Special needs parents fear the unknown… from the kindergarten playground, through middle school, teen years, and to adulthood.
For some overwhelmed parents professional counselling is needed to carry on. Seeking help can be difficult, but it’s the best, healthiest way to survive hopeless or sad feelings! Bobbi Sheahan quotes in her book, What I Wish I’d Known About Raising a Child with Autism , “If Mama ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy.” Therefore take care of yourself to help all the others depending on you.
How Can Special Needs Parents Feel Less Isolation?
- Sharing feelings of isolation, frustration, guilt, and inadequacy helps tremendously and I hope it helps others who are in same boat.
- Reading other blogs and comments helps you know your feelings aren’t unusual; it is your situation that is unusual.
- Really connecting with others on a similar journey can be a life line. Just knowing you aren’t alone helps.
- Actively looking for others who share a similar journey helps a great deal. Often you will learn a lot from each other.
What Special Needs Parents Can Do to Lighten the Load
- Get sufficient rest; eat as well as they can; take time for themselves; reach out to others for emotional support…
- Focus on what you can do. Take joy in that. Celebrate small steps “inchstones” as they say. Accept that your child advances to his own pace!
- Educate yourself about your child’s issues so you can be a better advocate.
- Focus on now, what you can do now. The past can’t be changed regardless.
- Recharge your batteries. Have a mom’s night now and then. A few hours to unwind with a good book or take a nap. It is extremely refreshing.
- Know your rights and the services out there to help your child/family.
- Enjoy each moment for what they are even if it’s not what you thought it should be. Laugh, be silly, cuddle, etc. That lightens up any mood!
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Thank you for this post
Very good post. Thanks!
my parents were angry, and there was a lot of yelling. How could i not be perfect?
“Your lazy! Your stupid! Your a bitch!!!!”
The trick is to keep trying and if your parents can’t accept that perhaps for you the race starts a little further back than they can shove it.I’m lucky enough that I can do whatever I can, its just going to take extra work. It’s just going to take longer.
@kaos – Appreciate your comment. Yes! to all you write about. Support from parents going through the same things as your family makes the problems easier to handle. We all need help/support/services… it is not weak to seek it out but WISE to do so!
Just wanted to say I loved it! Its so true, and once you find more people out there that are in the same boat, it makes the feelings so much easier to deal with. I used to feel so alone about everything. I mean, no one even talked about ‘autism’ in my town, and all of a sudden my oldest is diagnosed with it. I didn’t know where to turn to. Until I stumbled on this site, among others. Knowing that there is someone out there going through similar struggles is a small comfort. I know I could ‘have it so much worse. You’re kid could be terminally ill, blah blah” and yes, I know this. But that makes it sound that parents of SN children have no right to grieve for the dreams they had for their child. That just because it ‘could have been worse’ that our feelings are unfounded. And that, in my opinion, is wrong.
I have to stop mid rant because I’m gonna be late for work. Have a wonderful day everyone!
@[email protected] – Thanks so much for your comment! Glad to read you like my posts. Hope all is well with you and yours!
Reading you always makes me want to say *hugs*